Hi Followers

To understand what I’m about to tell you you need a background story.

The Background story: There are 5 foreign exchange students in big piney. Me and Enna were living together at our host family. Haidi (from Italy) and Deniz (from turkey) were living together at their host-family. Faizel (from Indonesia) is living on his own with his host family.

After a while problems started to form in my family and in the family with Haidi and Deniz. Because Deniz got kicked out of her family, she went to live with a different family in big piney. So Haidi was living alone with the The family she was in from that point on. In my family the there were some problems starting to form. I’m not going into what was going on but it made Enna want to leave the family. And luckly for her it came to the point that she got to go to an other family. I was happy for her but it also made me very sad because she really became a sister to me. At the time Enna was having problems I myself was also having some problems but i kinda wanted to give it a chance to see if it would get better but after a while. It didn’t really get better it actually got kinda worse. I was just not happy were I was. So after a while I got changed out of their but that is were it al kinda got messed up. Because i got put in the family with haidi so the family were already someone left. Haidi got to be my host sister and that was awesome. But before the change happend. I already heard a lot from haidi, from talking with her in school. I knew she wasn’t happy in her family and she didn’t want to stay there. And she told me that a long time before I even got to changed to their family. She had her reasons that she wanted to leave their house at first I didn’t really understand it. But when i got to the point that i was living with them i understood them very well and i was not comfortable with them either. I have lived with the Losiks for 2 and a half months or so. I got changed to an other family on oct 21 I have lived with them from oct 21 till nov 20th and on november 20th me and Haidi both got changed out of there we are both in different familys. We have been in our new familys for 4 days now and we feel releaved we are so happy that we are in loving family’s. Family’sthat make us happy and we feel loved in.

Now Ican for curtain tell you that im in a good place and im going to be happy for the rest of the year with this family.

Also fun fact the family that Enna got changed to is related to the family that I am living with right know. And the family that Haidi got changed to is good friends with my family and Enna’s family so we are going to see a lot of each other even though we are not living together anymore. And I think that is just absolutely awesome.

So a lot has changed and to be honest it has been rough I have cried a lot I got the point were I was asking myself what I got myself into. But Luckily I have loving friends in school and I had Enna and Haidi (whom I would still refer to as my host-sisters even though they are Technically not). They all helped me get trough all off this and have been there for me when Ineeded them the most I really love my friends.

I’m in a good place and im happy I sticked trough all of it, because now eventually I am happy and know I am going to stay happy. Of couse there are going to be ups and dows but I think Ihave gotten trough the worst of it and its only going to get better.

And just so you guys know and don’t worry about me. I have NOT been abused of any kind I was just not happy I had my reasons for it. And I’m not saying that those family’s that I have lived with are bad family’s. They just didn’t match with me. I am still very thankful that they have hosted my for the time they have and for the stuff they did for me. Because its not nothing to take just some kid to all the places that my first host family has taken me.

I hope you understand a little better now why I have been of the radar for a while. I have been trough a lot but I’m happy now and I hope knowing that I’m in a good place makes you all happy and not worry about me to much.

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Love Esther